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the TP dance concert was really good! impressive in the sense that it was all pretty classy.. i guess cos it's new and they've got really cool lighting effects. students of that sch should b proud of their campus. hahaha!~ yeah.
overall, the concert was quite slammin'!
well, the start of it all wasn't all that gd though. damn TP ushers din tell Howie they all that the seats they were occupying were for teachers and guest of honors and all. yeah.. and they apparently put the signs "RESERVED" but there were nt visible. asses!
so, we got separated. Howie, Hazel, MAx and i. well, max and i sat together larhx! it was fun .. crapping anrd n me being so critical abt the TP performers! hahaha@~ had lots of laughs though. funny dance moves and all! it was gd fun with Max larhx.. hahaha!~ [does *hunch dance move*]
hahaha!~
their hiphoppers were gd. they're on the right track. the lead guy with the bow was kinda cute. felt like asking fer his no..hahaha!~ but according to MARCUS, he said that that guy wouldn hv given it to me even if i asked anyways. .hahaha!~ [rolls eeyes intensively!]
yeah.. Marcus sent me home.
still in the midst of my own soul searching... so, yeah... stil in the midst of finding a soul mate. soul searching first larhx hor? hee!~`
when it happens it happens i guess.
hmmm...
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today's dRama was aiight..
can feel the stress mounting up already.
dang!
i was thinking in the train, and i was thinking of myself being God. and somehow, i get wat Simone wants fer God. not that i'm saying it's easier or watever.. but i can sEE myself doing it, as in, being able to do it.
as fer Angela, i juz can't see it yet. i guesss the motivation to b her is really difficult, or at least i find it to b. yeah...
hope all goes well. tryign to improve. trying to cry so that everything wil turn out beta in a way.
sad music sure helps. ha!~
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don't ask.. juz watch that movie, the life of David Gale. it's really good.. to me at least.. if u like suspense shows and murder and all.. hahaha!~
but it's good fer all..
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i juz realized that the idiot livejournal has got this clock all wrong. juz fer info to readers, i dun update my journal at 7.58 in the morning! hahahha!~
will try to check the time as often as i can to make sure it's right, ha!~`
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marcus juz said something.
he said that he's really busy with stuff and everything and he isn't sure if can handle em all at one shot.
well, can he handle me then? well, dun think so far larhx, i guess. the main thing is getting to noe each other and being sure abt how i feel abt him. after that stage is passed, then i guess we'll look at stuff like whether he's "capable" to handle me.
hahaha!~ yeah..
juz a thought.
well, getting to noe each other as friends larhx.. no harm..
keeping options open, etc...
-Nat
btw, today was awesome! seeing all the drama people and all. miss em so much!!Current Mood: doopy! Current Music: open your eyes - alter bridge |
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stef, i am so gona kill u fer wat u told Simone today! hahahhahaha!~
my GOD! did u see the color of my face?! it was RED RED RED!!! AHHHHH!!!!
juz cos all has come clean between U AND SHANE does nt mean u gotta kill me like that girl! SHEESH! hahahahah!~~
still love ya though!
gd to see ya today Christine. it's been along time, Judy.
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haha!~ Carrie is my only hope. anthony is NOT dull. he's my darlin'. vonzell isn't THAT Gd. i wun reli call her a diva though. she's got the potential, but she isn't there yet. hee~ no wonder she isn't getting lots of support..hahaha!~ love you girl. can go with me buy bikini?! hahhaa!~ yeah.. btw, the $70 bucks from Angel is ready...
i can pass it to u juz nice if we go out. soon k? huggies!~
muacks
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hahaha!` feeling happee today. Eunice shld noe why.. and ermz.. Alec shld noe why too! hahaha!~ anyways, yeah, juz feel that today was a beta day larhx.. yeah.. hahaha!~
sch was gd.
compering today was alright, except for the fact that the drowsy medication got to me a lil' and Wu Hao caught me red handed yawning in the middle of the rehearsal! hahahha!~ dang!
hmmm... brb to update i guess.
-NAt
p/s: the pic of MAx and that little girl is simply adorable! AWWW! argh!~ hahahha!~Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Jerk it Out |
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managed to find someone who cld possibly play fer me if Chung doesn think he's up to it. yeah.. his name's Arsha. Elias' friend from amkss.
kinda bored now.
sick. middle of night was burning up and having a fever. took panadol, went back to bed, rested most of the day.
hmm...
love the song my immortal by evanescence. wana get the song missing you or something by em.
anyways, bored now. yeah. gona slp i guess. hv sch tml. goin to sch fer the rehearsal of the event. yeah... hv drama too.
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hahaha!`` well, i dun like Bo larhx.. i mean, e doesn want it, Shane. so i dun feel that he should win. it's like, Bo joining a competition he has no interest in and yet idiots vote fer him! totally calls for an eye rolling session! hahaha!``
abt the Bikinis.. i totally agree.. dunoe wassup'. .hahaha!`
diana, i dun think constantine's eye fucks have gone too far! i'll miss em dearly! hahahahaha!~` Bo's unshaven, doesn hv a good voice and his teeth in terrible condition! hahahahaha!` but i still love ya girl! hahahaha!``
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29th April... a date i thought i'd never ever forget. 29th of April 2004 was the date Julius asked me to be his girlfried. i can still remember that day. it was raining really heavily and i was on my way home from work. i was glowing.
i thought i'd never forget this day... but i did. i don't know how come... it juz totally slipped. having mixed feelings that i forgot the very special day. sad that i actually forgot. but nt that sad that i forgot. i want to move on...
haiz...
everyone i tlk to says that Julius and i would never hv worked out anyways. really? i never really thought abt it like that.
well, i'm taking it one step at a time, one day at a time. God has blessed me with gd friends and allowed me to get to know other gd people too!
anyways, i'm suppose to sing for the SB freshman orientation.. wanted to sing Michelle Branch's all you wanted, but Melissa can't play fer me.. Asked Robin, but he can't either. guess i'm kinda out of options. so, people reading this, if u have any suggestions, do drop me a comment.
guess i'm gona go shower now. juz got back frm town. hmmm..
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woke up late... had lunch... watched Van Helsing.. awesome show.
send sis to her dinner and dance at singapore island country club.
went to metro.
bought 2 tubes... 2 shirts...
received the script for the SP Handing Over Ceremony event i'm doing next Thursday...
hope i dun screw up. it's formal, reading names. inviting G.O.H.. yeah.. hope i dun sound too bored! Raj, as usual, a great help! gave me tips.. pointers.. encouragement.. it's gd to be G.O.G 2..hahaha!``
well.. yeah..
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slpt kinda late last night though i was kinda tired. watched turn left turn right. heard it was a gd show so decided to watch it in bed on the computer. well, it's KINDA nice i guess.. pretty sweet... but i tot it was a bit slow and stuff.. din get to watch it finish. fell asleep..hee!~` guess i'll continue it tonight or something.
went to a couple of places with mom and sis today. went to esprit, bought a couple of things. saw this really nice bikini, wanted to get it, but it was $88.90. mom SEEMED like she would get it fer me if it was less expensive, hee!~
anyways... O.C. was awesome today! i think Summer and Zack really deserve to be together.. Zack is so patient and he's juz so perfect.. yeah..
as fer Seth, well, i guess he does still like Summer so it's kinda sweet, but, well, i guess sometimes people ARE too late.
moving on, Ryan and that new girl, totally rocks! hahaha!~ so sweet! i went AWWWW so many times. dang! the ending had to b that they're all kinda related.
i almost cried juz now after the american idol results. how could constantine b out?!!!!!!!!!!! he's like, the best! i mean, i so expected him to b the last 2, together with Carrie!! i'm so sad! VONSELL shld b out.. i mean, she can hit the notes sometimes, but she's very pitchy. think Randy Jackson is so Bias!! humph!~` and BO!! u dun deserve to b where u r now.. i mean, u don't WANT it... so, i dun think u shld b goin so far... hee!~ [sorry diana! huggies!]
p/s: something from the O.C. "She can't fall for you... if you're not there to catch her..." AWW! hahaha!~`Current Mood:  americanidol flu Current Music: all you wanted - michelle branch |
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sometimes i wonder wat people say about my blog. we were juz talking abt some people's blogs today at LJS with the drama sweeties and they were tlkng a bit about blogs. ya think mine suck?! hahaha!~
anyways, today's musical workshop was pretty awesome! i'm so glad that most of the Drama people came... i hv no idea wat the class wld b if they didn't come! hahaha!~ yeah, it was really good fun and juz like the good ol' days during Drama class with Simone.
as usual, the jokers Shahid (aka Shahida) and Benedict and Shane were the jokers... including some "new" jokers not from Drama GEM. in fact, everyone was pretty awesome! yeah.. had lots of fun... miss the guys from drama.. so glad got to talk for hours at LJS at Cineleisure.
kinda tired now actually, considering it's only 0136! hahaha!` well, yeah...
talked about Julius (again?!) with my Drama friends. i finally feel like i'm speaking to "grown ups" abt my problems. and not really worrying whether they'd judge me ornot, because they're my age and they're my friends. :) after the conversation, i came to realize stuff i never did. it's like, it's all much clearer to me right now... things between me and him and what i should have saw from the very START of the relationship. i'm thankful for all of their advices and helping me get back even more on the right track. the one thing that's ringing in my head right now is wat Ben said. he said something like, i don't NEED a boyfriend wad. or something along those lines. and i came to realize that i really should take things one step at a time. if something happens or if someone comes along, then, yeah.. u noe.. b friends, b sure... yeah...
i guess from Julius' point of view, it's sorta saying it in this song... it kinda goes like this:
"Cos' i can't make you love me if you don't....
you can't make your heart feel something it won't..."
sounds a bit simple and cliche in juz words... but the song happens to b quite nice...
p/s: Pool was PRETTY cool, except for the fact that i kinda sucked. :P
Shahid, Ben, Stef, Shane, Yanti, Jas... ya'l rocked! huggies fer all!~`Current Mood: lonely Current Music: Can't make you love me-Bonnie Rait[also sung by:Constantine] |
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i suddenly feel depressed. juz finished doin the dishes. was thinking when Julius and i use to do the dishes together all the time. it was neat. we'd b washing the dishes the whole time that the water level wld b so high! haha! yeah..
this is the most real entry i can ever put it, i think.
i miss julius, i'll admit. but i want to move on. it's over, i have to know that. i guess it's just all the things i've been through with him and being so comfortable with everything, juz dun really see how i can start all over again. i mean, crushes and having the feeling of the blood pumping from ur heart rushing all the way to your head, that feeling is kinda good.. but it's juz too much to go through everything all over again just to get so comfortable with someone. it's the small little details that i remember so clearly when being with Julius. it's funny i guess... hmm...
well, i guess i'll take ziqing's advice.. stay happy and cheerful. i guess that's the road to a better life? i mean, there isn't much sense to b sad and all, but it happens i guess...
but other times, i think, if i were still with Julius, i wouldn't have done all the things that i already have. example, perform for Wave 9, go to the beach in a bikini, go wild wild wet with friends and stuff. i guess it's cos he'd wanna do all those with me.
but, i'm getting to know more people right now, opening my options and stuff.. trying to get back on the right track. don't know how long it's gonna take fer me to get back on the right track, but i guess i gotta start somewhere.
i'm getting to know Marcus from Dance and Cheer. we're currently just friends getting to know each other better. see if we're compatible... or whether God's will is to bring us together as just friends or more than that... So far, we've been doing quite well, SMSing, chatting over the phone (hope i don't get his hp bill so high! :P), yeah.. stuff like that.
the outing at Wild Wild Wet with the whole dance and cheer team really did bring Marcus and i closer together.. we got to be more comfortable with each other and stuff. i always wanted to go Wild Wild Wet with Julius when we were together, but it never really happened. so, i'm quite torned by the fact that i didn't go with the "love of my life" (Julius) and i went with Marcus instead. torn, not in a bad way, but in a.. ermz.. like.. "Hmm" kinda way. i'm not sure wat i mean, but yeah... BUt i did hav a good time that day at WWW so, no regrets, hahaha!
well, Chung is quite a good catch too. HAHAHAHAHAHA!~` sorry, it's kinda funny just typing that out...
anyways, that sweetie is still in Hongkong, reporting that he juz injured his finger while playing basketball, haha! Tweetie!Current Mood:  depression? haha! Current Music: Mockingbird - Eminem, don't wanna try - frankie J |
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juz realized that guitar tabs are actually available on the net. anyways, went to altavista and get guitar tabs. so far have:
goodbye - michelle branch
love songs for a savior - jars of clay
hero - enrique iglesious
collide*** - Howie day
yep! that's about it. now fingers blistering.. hee!~ wana go swimming soon.. but pool's filled up.. might stil go anyways. nose was beta today.. at least it wasn't dripping.. lalala..
i know it sounds weird, but i wanna feel again. interpret it however u like.
wonder when the drama sentosa thingy is gona b.. no one said a thing so far.
oh! damn virus, stupid com.
oh! couldn't wake up for church today.. guess the whole family's goin in the evening.Current Mood:  still sleepy! Current Music: one two step - Ciara (feat. Missy) |
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last night, this morning rather... a huge bomb was dropped on me! haha! yeah.. hmm...
tough to put stuff on blog.. but anyway.. yeah.. hmm.. hmm...
ANYWAYS, I think marcus is a nice person. he's pretty cool, crappified (somewhat like moi) and stuff.. we click well together...
i guess there's a "BUT" afta that..
but..
.... ... ... [full stop]
one step at a time, watever it is.
suiluj, uoy ssim llitss i.
kniht i.
p/s: Edna Mode from the Incredibles rock! hahaha!
oh! doing the CSSC thingy with Timmy was really fun. talked the whole way about Russell Peters and all.. yeah..
the night din go so well last night though, but, i'd rather not think abt it.Current Mood: "how?" haha! Current Music: till i get over you - michelle branch |
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today was awesome! goin' to wild wild WILD wet! hahaha! i've been there before, but this time it was different. i went with the sp dance and cheer team. they're the coolest people on this planet! hahaha! yeah...
i had loads and loads of fun! sitting the 6 people ride, the slide up, tsunami pool, shiok river, trying to beat the record timing of 13seconds sliding down the slides.. yeah.. it was just so cool! got burnt. yeah.
hung out with marcus more cos the rest left and we kinda stayed behind to enjoy a lil' more. it was really fun!
the day ended with BBQ at Aranda country Club! great food! Regine, Jasmine and Freddie's BF, hahha! sori, forgot his name yet again! DOH!~ hee! yeah.. we had dancin', howie, marcus, daniel, yeah.. hahah! cool stuff! really fun...
but the day really ended with marcus sending me off to the carpark where mom and dad waited fer me, picked me up. and... ... yeah...
hmmm... ... ...
really tired right now.. chatting with msn friends, typing in this entry, drinking milk and eating muffin. dehydrated! guess i'll blog some other time. gonna go cut hair at tony and guy academy. bad idea? well, yeah, mayb.. but sis cut before, it turned out really nice.. so, yeah.. since it's free, let em mess it up! :| hee!
oh! p/s: jasmine and Cairu's sistas r juz so cute! i either want lil' sistas or my own girls, hee!! sheryl and cailing..hee! will grow up to b really pretty! hee! :D
gotta go, eyes closing. .nitey nite.Current Mood: totally hyped up! tired tho. Current Music: 1985 - bowling for soup |
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kinda bored right now. as usual slept til noon. wanted to go swimming or play tennis, but damn! it had to rain! yeah...
feel like doing something exciting right now..haha! can't seem to sit still larhx.. hmm.. i mean, it IS the holidays right? haha!
lkng forward to tomorrow, hving the chalet. sadly only can stay like for a day. hopefully i can go the next day too!
haiz!~ claric sent me the sms abt the community svc at Clementi, i think it's like 5+ in the morning!! madness! yawns! but guess it's okay larhx, can get to go out! hee@!~ doing with Timothy or something.
hmm.. bored..
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holidays r fine. i guess it's beta than studying. hmm...
went to raffles city yesterday with mom dad sis. went to esprit. bought a blouse..hmm.. din buy anythn actuali. wanted to buy a pair of jeans. the one at esprit is $129 so it's out of the qn. .the one at Levis, hmm.. the service there wasn't reli good.. a bit cold.. hmm.. yeah..
i dunoe.. i'm juz bored now. yawns. wanted to go play tennis but all the courts r booked up. goin church soon.. cldn wake up fer mass this morning, so, yeah.. hmm...
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yeah, it's a complicated thing. haiz..
had many conferences abt it today with my parents. talked about Julius and abt Lawrence, my sista's ex boyfriend. hmmm... life just has to go on i guess...
to tell u the truth, i hate how that sounds. life has to go on.. it's so.. blunt, sorta i guess...
Julius was a gd guy. the main thing at this age, he loved me a lot. i mean, not putting financial support and all those grown up stuff into perspective larhx, other than that, from what u can see now, he was the perfect person. then again, nt so perfect cos we aren't together anymore. i do admit that i miss him most of the time, and i'm just letting things go as they go...
if our paths are to ever meet again, then, hope that it'l b another pleasant one.
hmmm.. realized all that i'm typing r so general n dun reli make sense.. oh well..
yeah... hmmm...
gd guys r difficult to find. i mean... from just physical appearances alone, u can actuali match this person to that or wat.. but as u get to noe em, u juz aren't able to see him as a person u can fart in his face n nt feel embarrassed... hahaha! or, ermz, taking a shower with him when u're all grown up and innocently married..hahaha! yeah, as nuts as it sounds...that's kinda how i feel. if ur hair stands when u think abt all those things [in an innocent way, if i may add...] i dun reli see it very "right", if u noe wat i mean...
oh wat the heck..
let's juz go Sentosa and hv fun n nt analyze every damn thing. ---> yes, i noe, no link.
nite now.
p/s: want to get a ripcurl mesh(or is it mash? hmmm...) cap.
"Everything happens for reason..."Current Mood: lonely Current Music: qi li xiang - jay chour [hahaha! yes, mandarin!] |
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The past two weeks was seriously horrible. I guess for the fact that I didn’t start my revision earlier so I had to be content with the time the sch allotted us a break of days between the next papers, so, yeah. It was a crazy 2 week. Went to sch most of the study days to study. Study partner: Marcus. It was surprisingly “study-able”, haha!~` I mean, I dun usually study well around friends. I always end up chatting and stuff. Guess it’s cos I really had to “chiong!” hee!
Juz finished taking a shower. Madness! Taking a shower at this time! Anyways, watched Tru Calling on channel 5... My next favorite show! Just totally awesome! I think what I like most about the show is that it always has a little “Aww” romance kinda story in it. No matter how little, it’s more than enough to make my heart go all soft and lovey dovey.. haiz!` today’s episode was fantabulous. Just a run down on what the whole series, Tru Calling is about: it’s about this 22 year old hot chick (she starred in Buffy the Vampire Slayer as Faith, Eliza Dushku), she works in the morgue with her other nerd cute colleague. She has this premonition gift, sorta thing. When she receives dead bodies, they come to life juz for a split second or 2 to ask her fer help. Sometimes, they gave clues as to how she’s suppose to help them, that kinda thing. All this time, she always thought that she was given this gift of being able to hear them ask for help, then time rewinds itself all the way back to when she first got up in the morning, and she’l know everything that was to happen during the day and she had to go about making changes to save that dead person. Today’s episode was awesome coz this guy, Drake, he fell in love with his highsch sweetheart and then he had to leave for army. He kept writing to her, but she just kept sending back the mail. One day, he received a telegram from her while he was in the army, it said that she didn’t love him anymore and that they could never see each other ever. He thought that he had been harassing her and just left her alone though his heart knew he’d always love her. Something happened to him when he went to the army and afta couple of months, they did a check up for him and a CAT scan. He was gonna die in a couple of hours cos’ there was some shit in his pulmonary artery or something. So he wanted to leave the hospital to go find her and see her for the last time. The only way he could go on living was to go for a surgery which was extremely risky cos’ likelihood is he’d die. So as he was trying to sneak out of the hospital, passing the army uniform guard, he snatched his gun and kept trying to convince him that he really needed to get out of the hospital. This other ass army guy saw him pointing a gun at the army guard and shot him right smack in the chest and he died instantly.
So anyway, she managed to reverse time and she went back to do everything differently. He didn’t get shot and he managed to get away and go look fer her at the address he had of his girlfriend, Bridget. But they had shifted house and changed telephone numbers. All that was left in the house were some old magazines. Tru (Eliza Dushku), she calls the magazine company pretending that they had not switched the address of the sending of the magazines, manages to get their new address. Goes to the house with Jake after finding Jake at the old house. Ermz, goes to the house, she does not tell the father that it’s cos’ Jake was dying, the father hates Jake cos’ he feels that he’s the reason his daughter isn’t who she’s suppose to b today. Oh darn! My description sucks! Please go to this webby: http://www.fox.com/trucalling/episodes/index.htm. Episode 107. please please, u won’t regret it! Hahaha!` well, at least e show was gd.
Hmmm.. I can’t believe I actually went home today after the last paper! Hahahah! Guess fer the fact that I wasn’t feeling too well and was absolutely drained!!! Yeah.. got home, had lunch,
watched the Aviator. not bad. watched the Incredibles after that and fell aslp on the floor. yeah.. went for prata dinner with neighbor, Collin, 28 who juz got back from Australia. got a guitar lesson from him. he's really good..
hmm.. can't seem to stop thinking about today's episode of tru calling. it really made me feel like if u feel that u gotta do something, do it, coz u might not know if u'll regret not doing it. guess everything happens fer a reason.
can't wait to meet up with friends fer jammin' or to the beach!!! going Rome on the 14 of May. yeah.
eu! tummy ache..
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Today is the one of the most memorable days of my life. The play is finally over, but to me, that isn’t a good thing. It feels funny to be entering this journal entry and not worrying abt whether I’ve memorized my script. Hmmm…
Today was juz awesome. Was juz looking through the videos I took and man~! They were funny and we sure had a lotta fun! thank you for comin', Marcus. Freddie too!
Won’t forget Sha and his funny pink tie and his spastic laughter, Ben and his Indian moustache cum beard, Father Patrick’s (aka Patty) unacceptable behavior as a priest (hee~!), Kenny’s drunk behavior and beating up Ralph every few seconds, Ralph juz being the caring groom and smiling groom as he is, Jen juz being the crazy, hysterical wedding planner(simply love it!), Judy (best director), perto(our adam sandler), angie(our clothes savior!), mother dearest, Flora, Doug, everyone else who’s not here…. I don’t really know how to describe it, it was just so wedding-ly and family-ish. I’d like to do that again man~! Rocks!
Haiz~! I wanna b looking forward to go to school on Monday to walk up the stupid hill, up to the ChildCare centre! I wanna have my meals at McDonald’s! Breakfast, lunch, DINNER, break, ice cream, the tao hui! Everything!!! I kinda knew I’d be feeling this way after the play ended but I didn’t really treasure it enough. I guess it was the fact that I was so stressed up over the whole thing.
It’s so sad know, this something… hmmm… I mean.. hmm… argh~! That’s wat I hate about e-journals, the whole world (esp ur friends and people who know you), they will b reading it, so u can’t really put down every damn thing! Hee~! Anyways… [thinks…dreams… recalls…] the play was awesome wasn’t it? I thought it really was… so nice… [dreams]
Oh! After the play, Stef, Shane, Sha, Ben, Prinsten, Doug and I, we went down to City Hall LongJohn’sSilver! I ate so much!!!!! Feeling so guilty. Oh!~ went over to peninsula plaza too! Cool place, though a lil’ creepy if u go alone. That place, strictly!!!-->go with someone else, do NOT go alone! It’s cool coz I dinoe there was a place that sold so many electric guitars. All this time, I juz tot that they sold musical stuff at Yamaha Music Sch or Cristofori. Hmm… interesting. I think I’m gonna take up learning how to play the guitar after the exams. I saw this book at one of the basement shops at the Plaza which teaches u how to play chords and stuff. It’s 8 bucks. I think I wanna go get it. I mean, it’s sorta like learning piano from scratch, I remember how I did! So I think it’s okay to learn those kiddy stuff, yeah. Gotta start somewhere right?! ;)
Shall update this journal as regularly as I can.
{burps!} sleepy! Think I’m gonna slp and grow fat. Mugging session starts from tomorrow!!!
Love you all DRAMA PEOPLE!!!!!!! and yes, simone, we all love you very much.Current Mood: content Current Music: One Last - Taufik Batisah |
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i wish you were here for me. i don't know what's to happen between us now. i regret not treasuring you enough, i'm man enough to admit it. being loved is the greatest thing on earth.
i wish to be able to get over all this and start afresh.
i wish to be given another chance to love someone and be loved.Current Mood: sad Current Music: Canonball - Damien Rice |
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i dunoe y my subject is unwritten, i guess for the fact that i like e song "unwritten" sung by Natasha Beddingfield. also, i think there are a lot of things that have been unwritten in this journal. oh well...
yeah, been quite a long time since i've put in an entry...
listening to the radio during ITAB now.. pooewr 98. this lil' kid juz called up the radio stn to tell his girlfriend that he loves her very much coz she's funny. he's 12! cute. just like the lil' boy in Love Actually.
the break up with Julius is still affecting me. i really don't know what to do. my life can actually be considered good right now considering i just received a huge blow...
complicated as well if i may add.
chung, darius and diana have been my family members.. giving me advice and hearing me out over and over, even if it's about the same thing. i love y'all!
listening to she will be loved by maroon 5 right now... Julius used to sing that song out of tune all the time, hee~!! i really do miss him. but i want to move on, i want to get to know more people, hang out more. i mean, i admit i do have crushes on guys right now.. but.. yeah, none of which have yet to make a big impression that i may want to b with them. [wat makes you think they even have an eye on u, Nat?! ego bitch!] yes, that's true. well, i don't know.. slowly i guess. these kinda things can't be rushed and all.
hiphop dancing on Friday was awesome! i really want to join. but with comperes and all, don't htink mom will let. so, plan A:
study hard
get As
ask mom to let me join SP Dance and Cheer, Hip Hop!
oh! i got a t-shirt from Marcus. it's really neat. one of the most creative stuff i've gotten. i think it's alwaz nice to recieved something [present/nt...ocassion/not] when the person makes e effort to do something. sweet. thanks marc.
"Home" by michael buble alwaz made me cry. i think it's the tune. but now that Robin mentioned to me something about the song, i've seen it from a different light. listening to the lyrics of the song made me feel that it's the kind of song u'd wana hear when u're away from someone u love. it's a really emotional song actually. it still is sad, but yeah... Juz hoping tt it's a gd thing that "Home" reminds Robin of me... :| haha~! oh well, yeah...
exams coming. i'm totally laggin behind. if i wanna join dance n cheer, i really got start bucking up!!!! access exam, 40% is coming. well, next week actuali..i'm so so freaking dead!!!
hiaz!~ still having a lota things goin on in my head right now. i really try not to get distracted, but it happens most of the time. sad.
guess i'll update again.
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i know i haven updated my blog for a long time! i juz din feel like talking abt anything for awhile due to the break up with Julius.
anyways, made a couple of new friends from dance and cheer and mayb give em somethin new to read.
the concert was absolutely fabulous! although i think they would have done a much better job if they knew the concert was nearing and would practice their dance steps more.
yeah...
hmmm... i dunoe.. feeling sian now.. but.. well.. yeah... hmmm...Current Mood: calm Current Music: fixing a broken heart |
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this week is madness! i've got tests, events, proj due! AHH~!
as i lay in bed the other night, while huggin bunny to sleep, i was thinking about stuff. i was thinking about how he isn't there for me at all. then i started to get angry. i haven't given anything much thought yet coz i know it'l only make me cry. i juz wanna let things pass, but i know things will never be solved if i don't talk about it, at least to myself.
with all the work, i doubt i'l deal with the matter soon.
econs test tomorrow..
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i guess you could say that i'm listening to quite depressing songs that make you think about sad stuff. yeah...
my week is going to be SO SO SO busy! check this out:
Mon - Stats test
- pacc tutorial
Tue - CRS cafe discussion presentation
- FOM report muz b done
Wed - Honor United Bazzar event {announcements}
- must study for Econs test on Friday
- have to do econs tutorial + test paper + previous tutorials by tomorrow
Thu - Econs tutorial due
- HUB event
Fri - Econs test!!!
- planning of Compere farewell party
hiaz~! so many things to do...
i miss him, i do...
but when we try to work things out, it just doesn't go the way we hope it would.
guess... we'l juz see how things goes. haven't heard from him in a long while. guess i won't be for a longer period of time.
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last night could easily be the most memorable night of my life. it was the SB Talentime finals.
i was so touched for all my friends who came to support me. Xiang wei came, Kait, MArzuk, Kathy, Jesslyn, Paulyn, Diana, Raj, Darius, and many more. sorry if i didn't put down the names i missed out.
the contestants were all really friendly and i made many new friends.
Khairul won 1st for both the Duet and Solo English Category. no doubt his voice was the power house! people even call him Khairul Batisah.. hahaha! but i think he has got his own style. give it up for Khairul of SB!
Sabarina was good too.. i think her voice was really awesome. despite going off key during the 2nd part of the song.. the two of em managed to pull of the duet together. they looked like they were really in love! WOOHOO! out hotest couple.. hahaha!
i won 2nd in the Solo Eng category, all thanks to me shaking my BUTT! HA! o watever!
it was an awesome experience!!! hahaha! Joe who was the other solo eng contestant. i think he's got great talent. "he could be the next John Mayer!: --> quoted by Wilson Goh. thanks joe! you're a fun person! HAHA! i sure will come and see your band some time..
after my performance, the people from MMSP who came to support Qiu Ting were really nice. hee! nice meeting y'all.. Silver n Leonard..
i went back with Wilson who "kindly" waited fer me.. o well! juz coz he din had company!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! no larhx.. he was very nice to wait fer me. but no difference larhx.. both of us were on the phone the whole trip! HHAHA! he was on the phone with Ms Sharon and i was on the phone with Xiang wei.. lalalala.. i think i was talking pretty loud on the handphone coz everyone was staring at me.. especially wen i said the word "STRIP" hahaha! thanks for keeping me company on my way home Xiang XIANG H!HAHAHA! :)
o ya!! it was lame.. Wilson and i were taking pictures while on the phone in the train.. blue seats.. it was farnie! the 2 caucasians were kinda like.. laughing at us.. haha! but who cares.. i was having a FANTABULOUS evening.
i'l admit, i was a little disappointed.. but i guess the judges gave their points more to the person who had better vocals. all in all, i had so much fun on stage.. i din feel as nervous as i thought i would. i thought i did a great job! {pat oneself on the back!} hee!
the organizers were really friendly. Robin, Brandon, Chris, Ken + his gf, HAz, MinJIe!! yeah... o! nt forgetting Wilson Goh, the door man! HA! good job.
though there were some cconflicts during the whole course of the Talentime, i think everyone did their best and the SB Talentime was a huge success! thanks for bringing me to the toilet, Robin. i would have pissed in my dress if you din bring me to a secret short cut toilet.. hahaha!
the crowd was not really well behaved though. i feel so sad fer Su.. they were so mean to her. i guess this is a perfect example of people judging someone before they even get to know her. first impressions last darlins!
n VICTOR!!! i wouldn have done wat i did last night without him. i practiced the night before and he went through with me the dance steps and how i was gonna deliver the song. thanks so much fer lending me the Tifanny & Co. necklace Vic!!!!! appreciate it. hope you get well soon.. take good care.
Diana n Darius, Chung n Su...! o.. nt forgetting RAJ!!! my Compere darlings!!! thank you for coming down and making so much noise!!!
Di!!!!!!!! DARIUS!!!!!! you have NEVER missed any of my major performances!! thank you so so much.. you don't know how touched i am that you all came and supported me. thanks for video filming me Darius.. though you din record the last part.. sob! but all was good! i could hear u asking Diana to shut up.. coz i guess she was like.. screaming in your ear.. HAHAHA!
RAJ! i know you love me.. HAHAHAHA! i love you too.. everybody was so crazy! HAHAHAHA! Thanks fer being there..
thanks Ning.. thanks fer ccoming down to juz tak a look even though you couldn stay.. muackies! go out one day yeah?
thanks to Bryan Xie for accompanying me to Kallang to get the song "karaoked" haha! i would have been told to strip at that kinda place if it wasn't for you! HAHAHA! imagine... a 17 year old at kallang, GEYLANG!!! hahahaha! had a great time with you.. keep working on those shoulders yeah?! HEE!!
PRINSTON!! hahahaha! u were there.. n ur SMSs were so encouraging and that really made me feel so so happee!! HAHAHA! thanks fer all the nice things you said abt my performance. funny meeting you at McDonald's at 11pm at Bishan... hahhaa! thanks for the company while waitin for 410(white) hee!
o well.. it was a terrific day and i'd do anything to experience it again.. muackies to all!!!!!!!!
thank moi lovely sis for giving me lots of support.. my parents too! thought they think i chose the wrong song..! hee! my classmates.. thanks for wishing me luck, Alex. everyone! even some of my lecturers!
thank God.. thank him for giving me a certain amount of talent. sing praises to you!Current Mood: touched |
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it's the day. i'l be goin fer the talentime in abt half an hr.. yeah...
went with bryan to Kallang to get the vocals removed from my song. phew!~* luckily i called him to go with me.. haha! it was pretty scary.. afta all.. kallang is like.. at geylang..hahaha!
alright.. nerves getting to me...Current Mood:  nervous |
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shit! i typed a whole lot of stuff but now it's all gone!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!
o never mind.. [bruhmph!]Current Mood: annoyed |
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haven't been sleeping well lately. been sleeping real late. i'm so packed this week man!
i've got to do this report by Saturday even though it's due only in about a month's time. seriously, i feel that i'm blessed that i have such conscientious group members who want to finish off the project early. but not this week for Geez's sake! i've got CCF rehearsal at the convention centre tomorrow at abt 3.15pm, den i have to get home to do Econs tutorial, den on Thursday, i ought to be studying for PACC test the next day. then on Saturday, i'll be hosting and interviewing Taufik and i'l b missing CIP. they want to go IKEA on Saturday when they can go from our school which is bloody nearer! wat's this man?!!!
Chinese New Year is coming. i'm excited about it, but i don't know why at the same time, i don't reli feel up to it kinda thing. hmmm...
alright, i'm starting to get boring...
i'm out!Current Mood: moody |
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i wanted to update my journal the day i had my talentime, preliminary round. i couldn't get access to a computer. e internet explorer at home isn't working, everything's in mandarin.
if i were to update my journal on 27th Jan, e day of my talentime preliminary, my whole mood would have been so different. the emotions would have juz came pouring out. but now, to describe that day, i would probably b blurring what actually happened that day, how happy i was. yep!
things are going down down down...
i told Julius we needed a break. not as a break up, but as a... break! yeah...
i'm not doing well in school, i can't concentrate, i find no interest in paying attention or studyin fer anything! wat the hell is going on?!!!!
i need to chill, yes, i need to relax, but i have no freaking idea how long i'm gonna take! i've got no time fer anything..
at the moment, my whole life is crashing down! literally!
although i got into the finals of talentime, my gong xi fa cai flower started blooming and i did lots of shopping, i'm still so unhappy. i'm so unsure about what the hell is going on inside of me... i dunoe wat to do.
my friends have been a great help so far. i have not really confide in my classmates though. i'm not so sure why either. i appreciate Xiang Wei for being an awesome Dude! also, my compere friends.
i've gotten my very first event. it's CCF, career and courses fair this coming Saturday. i'll be doing it with Raj (aka, Pravin), i'll be interviewing Taufik, most likely at least.. yeah..
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something's wierd happening to everything to do with this computer.
first, it has a life of its own. it switches on and off as and when it pleases, argh!
next, my livejournal is all in Chinese! OMG! i had difficulty trying to find the icon to add a new journal entry. well, it's geng xing ri zi... watever..
today was aiight.. went to church, then Julius had to leave early coz his dad needed help at the Pasir Panjang wholesale mkt...
apparently, he sold quite a lot and made quite a lotta money. he said he managed to bring the crowd in all by himself, so i'm quite proud of him, haha~!
but i hate it when he does things for his parents when i find that his parents, esp his mom, is not taking care of his well-being. i don't want him to turn into a sissy, but just a few days a go, he was really sick. he was down with flu, cough, fever, etc. i passed the germs to him. then he didn't go to sch for abt 2 days then it was the weekend. His dad could send his daughter to see a doctor in the middle of the night at abt 11pm and yet can't send Julius who was really sick at that time. they kept postponing it till i managed to cure him with some medicine i had at home. dad bought the medication back from the U.S.
anyways, been reading my past entries and i find them absolutely lame, half the time, i dun even know wat i was talking abt/wat i was thinking abt!!!``~~~ o brother! haha~!
made a couple of new friends these past weeks. i made friends with Bryan Xie and Teo Xiang Wei. pretty cool people. hmmm.. yeah..
been chatting with them lately and they pretty friendly.
felt stupid at times with the super lame things i said to people who aRE JUZ getting to know me... lalalala~!~
maybe Xiang Wei might read this.. o well.. "Hi there!" haha~! :D
hmmm... sent in my application for SB talentime, voice is much beta so i dun stand a high chance of embarrassing myself infront of everyone, haha~!
man! come to think of it, it's at the SB foyer, quite open.. gonna be dead meat! well, i'll get to see the whole format of the thing tomorrow. Ming jie (the guy incharage of the whole talentime thingy) said that the things will be up on Monday..
so i guess i'll see how it lks like tomorrow.
doing my PACC tutorial half way. dun understand a damn thing. read the lecture notes, lk like some java script to me~! it's bank reconciliation. it's SUPPOSE to be one of the easier topics.. guess i'm really lagging behind my work.
haven't finished the previous tutorial!!! ahhh!! petty cash!
still have stats tutorial to do. admit that i like stats more now... think it's coz i know how to do. so, guess i'll go straight to stats tutorial instead of dwelling on stupid accounts...lalalalala~!`
hmmm... o ya! i went to Goodwood florist at Thomson today. quite near my place. went there after lunch at Thomson Plaza. ate at Mouth Restaurant. as usual, ate the Set B, chicken rice set... didn't taste as good as it used to be. guess it's because of my ah kong. he can't eat, so he keeps watching all of us eat. it's quite mean to make him watch us eat when he can't, and he love food! hiaz.. i felt so sick man! i mean, i pitied him so much that i lost my appetite. and wen he went for a walk so that he won't have to watch us eat, all of us had to make sure he was in sight, so i had to keep on stopping my lunch to go lk for him when he was out of sight. hiaz~! things has changed..
anyways, ya, so after lunch, went to the big florist place...
went there before... very nice... love flowers. love orchids!!
bought a small pot of flowers for my room. hmmm.. dunoe wat type of flowers though. it's violet in color, and when it blooms, it'll look fantabulous!
bought another small pot of flowers for my sista. i think that flower lks gross man! it lks like a ... ermm... hmmm.. man's PENIS!! HAHAHA~! well, not that big i guess..lalalal~! HAHAH~!
bought crysanthemum and orchids for the balcony! they're really nice. i enjoy spraying em.. so far..
my spelling is definitely getting worser and worserer! haha~! have difficulty spelling almost everything. think it's coz i hardly write lately.
hmm... a lil' nervous abt Talentime on Thursday. if anyone asks me whether i'm nervous/anxious, i'm gonna lie!! HAHA~! no pt in lying though.. lalalallala...
hmmm... a lil' bored though i have things to do.
well, guess that's all i have for today...
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things has been tough wif Honey and me.. hiaz.. we hardly get to spend much time together coz he's buz settling down with sch.
i try my best to understand, but most of the time, i don't.
i want to be with him, but i have this feeling i will be pulled away from him by something..
___? i think too much...
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Jan. 10th, 2005 @ 01:02 pm
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as usual.. i'm entering journal entries in sch. having itab now.. boring! have no idea wat's the purpose of microsoft front page.. well.. okay.. i know larhx.. it's for websites.. but reali dun care how to do it..hee~!
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i still dun reli hv internet access at home so i can onli update this journal in sch. having itab now. finished what i have to do already so decided to update journal now.
christmas was alright. it was not as fun as it used to be the past many years.
julius and i quarrelled. frankly, i think there was somethin wrong with him that day. i still can't reli believ he actuali screamed at me and all. but anyways, we're fine now. forgiven each other, so that's important.
hmmm.. was suppose to type so much more.. dunoe why mind's in a blank now.
btw, i saw HER again..Current Mood: worried |
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okay.. i think i'm out of my mind.. juz wanted to jot that down..
it's gotta do with the gal sitting next to me in the SB comp lab.. anyways..
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Hmmm.. i'm having ITAB now. we got work to do, some lame powerpoint stuff.
can't type very well now, juz did my nails n dun wana ruin it. futhermore, it's a reali dark color so chips would b reli obvious... so i gotta type real slow...
lalala.. wil b back...
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I just got back my Econs results. i got 70 for the mid-session test. i think it's not bad, considering i thought i didn't know how to do most of the questions in the paper. I guess i'll work harder for better results.
Coming clean:
I used to want to compete to be the best in the class. best in terms of results and being an all-rounder. as in not juz studies material but sports and leadership qualities as well. i kept competing with everyone who did better than me and wasn't satisfied with the results i got. i realized soon after that my expectations were not based on the grades I (ME) expected to get but the grades that were set by my peers. I realize that that should not be the way. anyways, i guess i'm living a more fufilled life now and i'm pretty happy about it.
i juz met Nastasha.. the gal who did the photo shoot with Charles, Ricky, Su and Serene. yeah..she is pretty.. prettier in real life than in pictures actuali.. since i dun think she wants to be a model...being prettier in real life is more advantageous than being pretty in juz pictures..hahaA~! i'm crappin'...
I juz borrowed a couple of story books...
since Honey started reading, i've been influenced to read something. but i doubt i'd read all the 3 bks in time. i usually sleep in the train so.. ya...
cleaned up the Sparc+compere rm yesterday. i'll admit i didin't do much hee..
i'm pretty worried abt my studies.. i think i need to get help from Clifford soon.. but..hmmm... yeah..
will add another entry later i guess...
peace out~!
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haha~! yes, i am cranky now. i'm checking out the features of this livejournal. how to customize my background to what people view, what color n that sorta thingy.
one moment, i want this sweet background, the next i want totally deisgner fashion kind of colors, like red walls with grey stuffies that kidna thing. so it's quite messed up right now. hope i can get wat i want soon...
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I juz viewed really cool pics of Ricky, Charles (aka Wu Hao) n Su. they took the pics at the photo shoot for SP's magazine that's gonna be viewed by most secondary schools. it was really neat and totally America's Next Top Model-like...well at least it was closer than ANTM not like the pics that i take at home with my digi-cam, hee~! :D
Julius and i r doin' good i guess. but he told me that he really wants to fully concentrate on his studies coz Os r juz next year. he said that he's gonna neglect me quite abit coz he wants to spend time on his studies. i understand that and i'm very proud of him that he wants to do well but i'm juz afraid that if he really negelects me too much, i might unintentionally drift away, that sorta thing.
New house still doesn have a land-line so i can't talk to My Honey for like hours. depending on sis's free incoming hp for the time being which is not very convenient.
the cleaning of the SPARC+Compere rm is at 3pm. i'm now with Ricky and Diana and we're using the internet at various parts of the Main Library.
Hmm.. nothing much to type about now so i guess i'll juz go do some stuff on the internet then see if i have more to type.
oh ya! i saw Jennifer (SPARC) and Eugene (the Repelling guy) together. i saw them at Lido on my birthday, 4th Dec and they were pretty intimate...OOoooOOO..hee~! sori if i let it all out Jen, but everyone will know sooner or later anyways..hee!~ All the best!Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: No Music, Juz keyboard typings of others in the R3, Main Lib |
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Victor Darlin' introduced me to this livejournal.
To tell you the truth, when I first heard of putting their life stories online for all to read, I thought it was totally lame and such a "self-choice-invasion-o- privacy, haha~! But then after the SPARC + SPSC camp, I thought it was pretty cool PLUS it gives me the chance to put down what I feel by typing instead of writing (my handwriting sucks! HEE~!)
I'm sad now. I just found that my Parker pen is missing. I'm so so sad~!~!!! To make things worse, I just changed the re-fill for the ink. I won't say it was my ultimate favorite pen, but who'd wanna lose a Parker pen?
I finished lessons at 4.30pm today instead of 5pm. It's a new teacher Miss Lim Lee Yee. She's my Critical Reasoning Skills (CRS) teacher. She's sweet, soft spoken and quite friendly. Hope i'll enjoy her lessons.
American's Next Top Model, the Runway Ahead was pretty cool. Showed how their lives has changed after the show and how they've progress and all.
Everytime after the show or during the advertisement, I'll never fail to be more determined to get those abs on my stomach. Not TOO big though, juz Britney kinda size.
Hmmm... contact lense feeling dry, feeling kidna sleepy now. Guess i'll log off (in sch now, using free access)...
Gotta go home and unpack, juz shifted into new house.
Juz wondering... can a 155.5cm gal be a model? Haha~! I heard from my Sister (the one and only elder one) that her friend who's about my height was doing modelling for clothes or something. Sounds pretty cool. Maybe i'll try it out.
I suddenly feel like changing my whole look. I just want a change~! Hmmm...
Aiight... guess i'm gonna be sleeping in the train now...
Til' next time... Peace out~!Current Mood: sad Current Music: You - Switchfoot |
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